I have blogger's block.
There, I've said it.
I have the beginning of several posts all formed in my head, but no motivation or creativitiy to finish them.
I have a lot on my mind right now. Some series items (passing of a dear friend's father-in-law, friend having lumpectomy today) and some not-so-serious (Is Jimmy Fallon the best thing there ever was on tv? How did I cook all of these years without the Pioneer Woman?) But everything is all jumbled up in my head.
So, here, in no random order, are the things rolling around in my head:
*I've been reading "Forgotten God" by Francis Chan. The first time I read it I couldn't get into it and quit. This time I have really been moved by some of the points Mr. Chan makes. Yesterday I read that we talk a lot about "carrying our cross" for cross, usually referring to the day-to-day life we live: illness, money issues, job, friends, etc. But, isn't that life for everyone, not just Christians? So is that truly carrying our cross? What if carrying my cross looks different? What if it means giving up some things that I desire for the greater good of the kingdom? What if it means moving? Or changing ministries? Or not? Am I truly listening to the Spirit's call?
I'll admit, it kept me up last night. And I was glad it did.
*My kids are sick. I don't deal well with sick kids. I know God is teaching me to be compassionate and patient, but I just struggle with how to treat them, their whining, and those dreaded doctor's visits there they tell you you are crazy for bringing your kid in, and then he barfs a few hours later. Yeah, nice.
*I haven't had a date night with David in far too long, and I am in need of some adult conversation.
*My niece Abby has inspired me to try eating more healthy. Not healthy to diet, which is what I've done in the past, but healthy to get rid of foods that have chemicals, additives, etc. in them. It's like learning to walk all over again. But in a good way.
However, I still love me some hot dogs and mac 'n cheese. Period.
*And then there's the upcoming half-marathon. I started training about 9 weeks ago to run a half-marathon in Kokomo. For the record, I'm not even sure there is anyone else but me signed up. The website it still "under construction" and it's 2 1/2 weeks until the race. Not a good sign.
The first several weeks were awesome. I pushed myself more than I ever have physically. I ran and ran and ran.
And then I dropped a breadknife on my foot and had to get stitches on my toe.
And then I hyper-extended my foot walking down some stairs.
And then I broke my pinky toe.
All of the same foot.
Needless to say the running has slowed. So I'm trying to get back into the running swing for the race, but once I lose motivation to do something it's hard. Plus the foot is still injured. I'm trying to see this as a life lesson. (David keeps telling me the lesson is to not run this race!)
But I press on.
And you, dear reader, get to read every tedious scene.